So last week was a mess, yes, mess. Mess with myself, my room and everything around me. I felt my world is breaking down again and I’m losing the focus on my vacation-to-do list right at the most wonderful time of the year. I should have taken a long nap, I did, yet it is out of depression. It is true when they say “sad people tend to sleep more often”.
Every morning I woke up with sadness greeting me. It is when I feel the authenticity of being lonely, “alone again naturally”. I should be enjoying this vacation, the free time to do the things I like – blog, watch movies, bum around, eat, experiment, travel (when I can) but it feels like my energy has drained long before I get off bed in the form of tears and cursing. But I battled it out. I got a slap on my face waking up on a banner, “You’ve been there, done that”. I think I should wear that line, tattoo or statement tee?
Anyway, to start on getting fat again, I invited my friend Bambie for a dinner out in BGC Taguig. It is because I lost my appetite at home for unknown reason. We ate at this girly and shabby chic inspired bakery-resto – Vanilla Cupcake Bakery.
No we didn’t ate cupcake, we chose pasta and chocolate drink/shake to fill up our super-hungry and long-overdue tummy. I keep it in for hours, imagine my hunger, it’s my legit first meal for the day.
|I realize Carbonara and Iced chocolate does not go well together.|
Service is just fine, or maybe not? Maybe we are just distracted of the beautiful furniture and interior that we didn’t notice the service. Overall it is just fine, there are pasta and rice meals so cupcakes are not the only option. I’m just thankful that I finally eaten that day.
On another note, if I don’t have the chance to go out and just stay in the four corners of my bedroom, I do makeup, sometimes I record it. This way I can put a little something enjoyable on my brain aside from the negative realizations I’m having.
Natural look. After taking photos I immediately remove it and take a bath
Other things I do – watch youtube videos and read a book. Ugh, and also plan out my future travels. After all these, I still feel incomplete and seems like I’m not doing the right thing. I tried seeking social help, but sometimes, those words of encouragement your friends tell you are either too much to digest or just unnecessary brain fillers that make you go crazy. Most of the time I just let it pass my ears, go in straight out. Nothing, my brain is totally closed right now taking a holiday. But I’m not even worried, I know this will pass, soon enough that I won’t even have to worry who cares or not, because I don’t.
There’s a lot of sadness in this post, my pictures and side story doesn’t even work. I know you can’t even relate to what I’m going through. If you have a suggestion of activities (or things you do) to forget about all the sh*t in life, could you share it with me?